I'm quite frankly unsure where to go with this blog right now. I am headed towards the "I wanna write tons of crap and it not be crap and have lots of people read it!" direction. LOL
Any requests out there? I've not got any specific stuff to write, other than something that I've not gotten to finish due to fear (long story, will let you know when that blog comes out!), and a meandering contemplation on the contrasts/comparisons of horns and antlers. Yes, I am a devotee of Pan, but one of my main totem animals is Reindeer (Caribou), so there you go.
I am listening to the new single by Bjork right now, "Crystalline". Here's the vid I found:
Pretty spiffy, though it's been awhile since I've listened to her stuff. I still gravitate towards her early work, like "Human Behavior", and from the two albums after that. Allowed myself to slip into the poverty mentality for many years, however, and stopped listening to/buying new music that wasn't on the radio. Thank the gods I listen to public radio: my favorite station is WNCW, a college station out of Spindale, NC. Good stuff!!
Also, have discovered a kick-ass band called Other Lives. Here is an incredible song, "For 12". They also do a magnificent Tiny Desk concert on NPR's All Songs Considered.
Apparently, they are going to be at the Visulite Theatre in Charlotte, NC, on October 5!! Woot!! Now, if I can just get there... :P
In other news, Charlotte Pride is happening this Saturday, August 27th. This is, for those not in the know, a gay pride festival to celebrate our queerness and diversity, and acceptance. I have volunteered with Partners in Peace, to be a part of the "buffer zone" around the edges of the festival, to keep any conflict from protestors from bothering people. This year, which will be my first attending, there are supposed to be a couple of groups of evangelical christians surrounding the event. This bothers me, as their sole purpose is to surround gay pride, evangelize and "resist the gay agenda with love". Uh, okay. Here's a LGBTQ Nation report, with pertinent links to the "God has a better Way" folks, including a petition to get them to stop, which they have NOT decided to do. They are still planning on showing up Saturday, according to their website. I noticed on their facebook, that the only comments they allow with any difference of opinion are very few, and none from anyone who apparently had differing statistics.
This whole thing irks me, but what better way to meet ignorance than with love? They, according to their website, are planning to either march *through* the Pride festivities, or surround it. Damn. It's insane. They are going to need all the level heads they can get!!!! I'll be there with a couple of friends, so it should be interesting!! OH, and I'm so gonna be taking pictures!! LOL
Again, Charlotte Pride is this coming Saturday, August 27th, from 12 noon until 8 p.m. in downtown Charlotte, NC. Come on out and play! ;)
Can't think of much else to say. I've got to go out and get about, so until I return, here is a spiffy video (though not newer music) to enjoy!!
^_^
Many Blessings, Lovies!!
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Shedding (a poem)
bleed me
bleed me raw
rip me
strip me wide
open my heart
scrape out the inside
starting from scratch
building a foundation
building a foundation that will last
firm footings to hold me in the worst possible storm.
after the rain, some flowers lift their heads,
asking the clouds, why me? why now? why today?
alternately cursing and praising that which
nourishes and strips away,
casting the dead leaves off so that others may grow.
I wish to be like that.
Beauty stripped bare.
Pain stripped bare.
Skin exposed, heart exposed, mind open to infinite possibilities.
Great Mother Serpent, She whose coils enfold this very Earth in Her embrace,
Take me and shape me
If need, break me: please do not let me lose my mind, merely the pain inside.
It is rotten and sore, full of pus and gore, accumulated debris--30+ years of hurt.
Lancing draining healing flaking gently scraping the scab away at last
I must surrender
I must surrender
I must. And so I shall.
Thank you: when my tears fall, they cleanse me.
When the pain washes me o'er, it cleanses me.
When the sadness of what has been long forgotten is purged, it cleanses me.
When my heart has bled until it is bone-dry, it cleanses me.
When I can start over, each second of each day, always being reborn and constantly made anew, it will cleanse me.
Shed this skin.
Take this pain.
Take this thing inside.
Take it away! I do not want it anymore.
I am tired, so very, very tired.
I am tired of carrying around a weight that burdens me, numbs me, cripples me every second of every day.
I am tired.
I do not wish to be tired anymore, Mother.
I do not wish to hurt anymore, any more than is necessary. *This* is not necessary.
Please, take this pain: I offer it to you, freely.
It is my choice, and though I know I must be proactive, I cannot do this all alone.
The gentlest whisper, the gentlest sigh,
"My child, you are never alone:
Even when the candle flickers, the flames die down, and the coals grow cold,
I am still there. In the darkness, I am still there.
Sometimes even more so:
All things grow cold. All things fade away.
All things must die, and come to an end, before they can be reborn again.
So it is with us, with gods and humans, humans and gods.
We are alike, you and I.
In fact, we are very much the same. We ARE the same.
You need never look farther away for me than your own mirror.
When you see yourself, look deep into your eyes;
You will see the Goddess, and know she is inside.
Wrap my arms around you, bath in my love,
For I am yours and you are mine--as it is below, so it is above."
Thank you, Mother.
For showing me the way,
Where I can strip away all pretentions and merely, simply Be:
The doorway lies inside, and only I hold the key.
~~Me
bleed me raw
rip me
strip me wide
open my heart
scrape out the inside
starting from scratch
building a foundation
building a foundation that will last
firm footings to hold me in the worst possible storm.
after the rain, some flowers lift their heads,
asking the clouds, why me? why now? why today?
alternately cursing and praising that which
nourishes and strips away,
casting the dead leaves off so that others may grow.
I wish to be like that.
Beauty stripped bare.
Pain stripped bare.
Skin exposed, heart exposed, mind open to infinite possibilities.
Great Mother Serpent, She whose coils enfold this very Earth in Her embrace,
Take me and shape me
If need, break me: please do not let me lose my mind, merely the pain inside.
It is rotten and sore, full of pus and gore, accumulated debris--30+ years of hurt.
Lancing draining healing flaking gently scraping the scab away at last
I must surrender
I must surrender
I must. And so I shall.
Thank you: when my tears fall, they cleanse me.
When the pain washes me o'er, it cleanses me.
When the sadness of what has been long forgotten is purged, it cleanses me.
When my heart has bled until it is bone-dry, it cleanses me.
When I can start over, each second of each day, always being reborn and constantly made anew, it will cleanse me.
Shed this skin.
Take this pain.
Take this thing inside.
Take it away! I do not want it anymore.
I am tired, so very, very tired.
I am tired of carrying around a weight that burdens me, numbs me, cripples me every second of every day.
I am tired.
I do not wish to be tired anymore, Mother.
I do not wish to hurt anymore, any more than is necessary. *This* is not necessary.
Please, take this pain: I offer it to you, freely.
It is my choice, and though I know I must be proactive, I cannot do this all alone.
The gentlest whisper, the gentlest sigh,
"My child, you are never alone:
Even when the candle flickers, the flames die down, and the coals grow cold,
I am still there. In the darkness, I am still there.
Sometimes even more so:
All things grow cold. All things fade away.
All things must die, and come to an end, before they can be reborn again.
So it is with us, with gods and humans, humans and gods.
We are alike, you and I.
In fact, we are very much the same. We ARE the same.
You need never look farther away for me than your own mirror.
When you see yourself, look deep into your eyes;
You will see the Goddess, and know she is inside.
Wrap my arms around you, bath in my love,
For I am yours and you are mine--as it is below, so it is above."
Thank you, Mother.
For showing me the way,
Where I can strip away all pretentions and merely, simply Be:
The doorway lies inside, and only I hold the key.
~~Me
Saturday, July 16, 2011
My Pan Blog is now up on The Pagan Mom Blog
I was unable to actually post this on the 14th, as the laptop I've been using got struck by lightening the day before!
I hope you enjoy it, and I will post when I can.
Here is the link for my article at the The Pagan Mom Blog.
And why not have a song to enjoy as you listen?? :)
Many Blessings to everyone, and I hope you all have a wonderful week!!
Io Pan!!
I hope you enjoy it, and I will post when I can.
Here is the link for my article at the The Pagan Mom Blog.
And why not have a song to enjoy as you listen?? :)
Many Blessings to everyone, and I hope you all have a wonderful week!!
Io Pan!!
Friday, July 8, 2011
YEAH BABY!!!! :)
This just in, scrolling across April's facecrack page: the flying car.
I kid you not... Did you not click on the link??? ^^^^ that link^^^^, for example???
As the Pointer Sisters would say, "I'm so excited!!! And I just can't hide it!! I'm about to fly around, and I think I like it..." or something like that.
This car is more of a plane that drives, than the reverse, as the article above mentions. Won't it be so exciting to see a Jetson's moment???
And no, not the plot of the show, which is just cute cartoon soap opera action. Though, I always fantasized about having the awesome clothing changer (you remember, please, tell me you do!!), and having a Rosie the Robot to clean my house. Or just friggin' talk to!!!
Back to the scientists in question: I seriously hope their employer gave these good folks a HUGE bonus. Probably not, but darnit, they deserve it. Writing campaign, anyone?? It is truly a great day for science!! Well, it was the day they had their "Wright Brothers' Moment", as they called it. :) And, by the by, they Wright brothers were from North Carolina, like myself. Oh yeah. That's what momma's talkin' bout!
I can see all the problems with trafficking flying cars, though. :) Even with that, I am proud to admit that in my lifetime, we may even see hover cars. So freakin' EXCITED!!! And, if necessary, we'll just call in reinforcements:
Cheers, my loverlies! :)
***Note: The Wright Brothers were born and lived in Ohio, not North Carolina. I remembered incorrectly, as I am wont to do, and someone so very politely (ahem) put me in my place. Still, I do need to check factoids. And you know, I'm probably not the only person in the world who forgets shit. So there!!!
I kid you not... Did you not click on the link??? ^^^^ that link^^^^, for example???
As the Pointer Sisters would say, "I'm so excited!!! And I just can't hide it!! I'm about to fly around, and I think I like it..." or something like that.
This car is more of a plane that drives, than the reverse, as the article above mentions. Won't it be so exciting to see a Jetson's moment???
And no, not the plot of the show, which is just cute cartoon soap opera action. Though, I always fantasized about having the awesome clothing changer (you remember, please, tell me you do!!), and having a Rosie the Robot to clean my house. Or just friggin' talk to!!!
Back to the scientists in question: I seriously hope their employer gave these good folks a HUGE bonus. Probably not, but darnit, they deserve it. Writing campaign, anyone?? It is truly a great day for science!! Well, it was the day they had their "Wright Brothers' Moment", as they called it. :) And, by the by, they Wright brothers were from North Carolina, like myself. Oh yeah. That's what momma's talkin' bout!
I can see all the problems with trafficking flying cars, though. :) Even with that, I am proud to admit that in my lifetime, we may even see hover cars. So freakin' EXCITED!!! And, if necessary, we'll just call in reinforcements:
Cheers, my loverlies! :)
***Note: The Wright Brothers were born and lived in Ohio, not North Carolina. I remembered incorrectly, as I am wont to do, and someone so very politely (ahem) put me in my place. Still, I do need to check factoids. And you know, I'm probably not the only person in the world who forgets shit. So there!!!
Holy Chao, it's been 11 days since my last post!! :)
We can't be having *that*, now can we, my lovelies? lol
Last week, my mom went to the ER. This was the 28th, the day after my inaugural post on this blog. She wound up being admitted, and that night was spent partially at the hospital. She was put on "the list" for an emergency heart catherization, as she was having a LOT of pain at the time.
Wednesday, the 29th, saw her come through the catherization with flying colors. Spent that night with her there (after going back and forth to feed and water the animals; not the first time I have been thankful I'm only 5 minutes from the hospital!), and came home the next afternoon. She was so darn happy to be OUT of there, you have no idea...
(Course, you'd think, since I took the lap-top there so I could do something constructive, I would write?? Well, I did, I guess. I wrote word after word via facebook chat, to de-stress. :P)
After we got home, one thing led to another, and another, and before you know it, a week and a half has flown by...
I am going to be posting some of my poetry today, as well, to make up for my lag. These will be some older poems, and I've got to figure out how to post a copyright thingy on here... All content is property of ME, etc. etc. Any ideas on that, other than in the description to the right?
Also have to figure out how to post a tag for the Pagan Mom Blog's "31 Days of Deity", of which my blog on Pan will be the 14th. I've also got to get cracking on my Set blog, as I volunteered to do one on him. :) by the by, if you've NOT checked her page out, you should totally do so: http://thepaganmomblog.com. When I figure this button thing out, I'll add her on my blog list. :)
Hrm. Lessee, ah yes, in other news of note, I have started writing again, so we'll see where that leads. I feel to good places, and I'm just along for the ride!!
Of course, there's always other randomness, but I don't want this space to be a depressed space. This is for my pagan goodness: friends, family, soon-to-be-made and current, in the pagan community, and all the loverly lusciousness that entails. I'll have to also figure out how to include YouTube vids: that will *definitely* liven things up a bit!
OH, and no stress, no worry, right? I am making a mental note to myself not to feel *obligated* to post. This is for joy, for pleasure, and for my love of all things Pagan (my Deities will be happy when I finally get around to posting about them!!). So, I'm going to take Frankie Goes to Hollywood's advice: "ReeeeeLAX, go to it, when you wanna sock it to it..." :P
YES!!! Hahaha, I figured it out. ::cheesy grin:: I is proud to be an April, on this glorious Freya's Day. (Sun is shining: gonna be hot, but beautiful!)
Be well, my loverlies!! Be back in a flash: same blog time, same blog channel. Well, you get the idea. :P
Much love and many blessings!
Me (aka Sora, aka April)
Last week, my mom went to the ER. This was the 28th, the day after my inaugural post on this blog. She wound up being admitted, and that night was spent partially at the hospital. She was put on "the list" for an emergency heart catherization, as she was having a LOT of pain at the time.
Wednesday, the 29th, saw her come through the catherization with flying colors. Spent that night with her there (after going back and forth to feed and water the animals; not the first time I have been thankful I'm only 5 minutes from the hospital!), and came home the next afternoon. She was so darn happy to be OUT of there, you have no idea...
(Course, you'd think, since I took the lap-top there so I could do something constructive, I would write?? Well, I did, I guess. I wrote word after word via facebook chat, to de-stress. :P)
After we got home, one thing led to another, and another, and before you know it, a week and a half has flown by...
I am going to be posting some of my poetry today, as well, to make up for my lag. These will be some older poems, and I've got to figure out how to post a copyright thingy on here... All content is property of ME, etc. etc. Any ideas on that, other than in the description to the right?
Also have to figure out how to post a tag for the Pagan Mom Blog's "31 Days of Deity", of which my blog on Pan will be the 14th. I've also got to get cracking on my Set blog, as I volunteered to do one on him. :) by the by, if you've NOT checked her page out, you should totally do so: http://thepaganmomblog.com. When I figure this button thing out, I'll add her on my blog list. :)
Hrm. Lessee, ah yes, in other news of note, I have started writing again, so we'll see where that leads. I feel to good places, and I'm just along for the ride!!
Of course, there's always other randomness, but I don't want this space to be a depressed space. This is for my pagan goodness: friends, family, soon-to-be-made and current, in the pagan community, and all the loverly lusciousness that entails. I'll have to also figure out how to include YouTube vids: that will *definitely* liven things up a bit!
OH, and no stress, no worry, right? I am making a mental note to myself not to feel *obligated* to post. This is for joy, for pleasure, and for my love of all things Pagan (my Deities will be happy when I finally get around to posting about them!!). So, I'm going to take Frankie Goes to Hollywood's advice: "ReeeeeLAX, go to it, when you wanna sock it to it..." :P
YES!!! Hahaha, I figured it out. ::cheesy grin:: I is proud to be an April, on this glorious Freya's Day. (Sun is shining: gonna be hot, but beautiful!)
Be well, my loverlies!! Be back in a flash: same blog time, same blog channel. Well, you get the idea. :P
Much love and many blessings!
Me (aka Sora, aka April)
Monday, June 27, 2011
My intent, and Happy Monday!
I just wanted to say HI!! **waves** to everyone who may stumble upon this blog. :)
I've only posted blog bits on MySpace (lord, not for over 2-3 years!), and as notes on Facebook. So, I thought I would try something separate. This space will be devoted to my Patrons, as well as anything Pagan-y that I am thinking or run across. I do not believe in censorship, so I will keep these particular posts clean and family friendly. I am thinking of creating a separate blog, where anything goes, so when that happens I will alert the masses. lol
I am looking forward to sharing my life/thoughts with y'all. I have recently submitted a blog to the Pagan Mom Blog's "31 Days of Deity", with Pan as the subject of my entry. I think y'all will enjoy it, and am anxiously awaiting the day I can post the link here. ^_^
Anyone have any questions of me, just ask. I'm an eclectic kitchen witch, with strong leanings towards Celtic Druidism and the Norse pantheon as well. I would not consider myself Asatru/Heathen at this point, as there is sooooo much I do *not* know!! I am looking forward to learning more about Druidry, witchcraft in general, my patrons, and a recently discovered passion, Kemeticism. I also do intuitive Tarot readings, and work closely with my spirit guides and the archangels. I am by no means as studied/accomplished as I wish to be, and am always open to new Ideas, thoughts, and experiences.
On that note, be well, and I'll be posting more soon. (Have another post on Pan, and am compiling info for one on Brighid).
Blessings of the Mother and Pan,
Sora (aka, April)
Oh, just an FYI: if anyone should wish to contact me for a reading, please let me know. I am in the process of designing a business facebook page, and have a current paypal account set up for ease of payment. I do believe it is necessary to charge a reasonable fee for my time, and that is all. :)
I've only posted blog bits on MySpace (lord, not for over 2-3 years!), and as notes on Facebook. So, I thought I would try something separate. This space will be devoted to my Patrons, as well as anything Pagan-y that I am thinking or run across. I do not believe in censorship, so I will keep these particular posts clean and family friendly. I am thinking of creating a separate blog, where anything goes, so when that happens I will alert the masses. lol
I am looking forward to sharing my life/thoughts with y'all. I have recently submitted a blog to the Pagan Mom Blog's "31 Days of Deity", with Pan as the subject of my entry. I think y'all will enjoy it, and am anxiously awaiting the day I can post the link here. ^_^
Anyone have any questions of me, just ask. I'm an eclectic kitchen witch, with strong leanings towards Celtic Druidism and the Norse pantheon as well. I would not consider myself Asatru/Heathen at this point, as there is sooooo much I do *not* know!! I am looking forward to learning more about Druidry, witchcraft in general, my patrons, and a recently discovered passion, Kemeticism. I also do intuitive Tarot readings, and work closely with my spirit guides and the archangels. I am by no means as studied/accomplished as I wish to be, and am always open to new Ideas, thoughts, and experiences.
On that note, be well, and I'll be posting more soon. (Have another post on Pan, and am compiling info for one on Brighid).
Blessings of the Mother and Pan,
Sora (aka, April)
Oh, just an FYI: if anyone should wish to contact me for a reading, please let me know. I am in the process of designing a business facebook page, and have a current paypal account set up for ease of payment. I do believe it is necessary to charge a reasonable fee for my time, and that is all. :)
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